I’m Fat!? I Never Noticed!!

How could I have been so completely blind? Living in my own fantasy world!?

Thanks to Stuff.co.nz, people now have the tools to tell us fatties what we obviously did not already know.

To quote Tallulah from over at The Lady Garden:

Because there’s no such thing as a stigma against fat people, some days, it slips my mind that I am overweight. You see, I don’t ever get random abuse shouted at me on the street. The fact that I can only shop in about 5% of the clothes shops in my city in no way makes me feel like I’ve been corralled off into some paddock where the un-sexy fatties go to pig out and wear unflattering clothes. Buying clothes on the internet, and the extra cost involved, and hit-and-miss nature of it, passes me by. Going on that traditionally “girly” expedition, Shopping, with friends of “normal” sizes, in NO WAY feels like torture. I don’t ever end up buying, like, a $100 scarf, just to feel like “one of the girls”. And I certainly don’t own masses of shoes and scarfs and jewellery, because they’re the Fat Girl’s Consolation.

Read the rest of her post here.

Apparently “most adults do not see a problem in themselves but will see it in somebody else”, but ‘experts’ also say, “you should tell overweight friends or family that they need to slim down.” Do they not see the slight conflict of interest here? Or is it just me?

Ah, concern trolling. Who has not experienced some form of this? They mean no harm of course, they’re ‘just concerned about you.’ Some even go as far to say that you must be suffering from some kind of body dysmorphia, seeing beauty where, you know, it just isn’t there. How dare you be happy with the way you look, or even consider getting upset when you are told that you shouldn’t be.

People have no right to their own ideals on others. This counts for religion, political beliefs (not always separate), preferred hair colouring, music tastes, body type… the list goes on and on.

Why must we always feel the duty to pass judgment on each other?

H/T Tallulah

I Feel Like I Missed Out…

I don’t seem to have the ultra-creativity that many other sufferers of Bipolar Disorder seem too…

Sure, I’m fairly eccentric when it comes to my clothing and hair styles, but that’s pretty much it.

I have dabbled in the odd bit of poetry and art, but not for a long time, and I certainly wouldn’t say that it was particularly fantastic (no matter what I tried to tell myself at the time).

Maybe my perceptions are being skewed by society and the media… that and the fact that I have type 2 Bipolar Disorder, which generally doesn’t seem to have the same potentially dangerous and extreme effects on an individual and their surroundings as type 1 does. I tend to have mixed episodes, and, luckily I suppose, not hypomania.

I had thought that once I had my correct diagnoses that it would make everything seem a little better, but now I feel even more isolated than anything else. I have Evil Twin Fae sitting inside my head, surrounded by her gremlins, telling me that I’m doing it wrong.

Who needs trolls when you’ve got your very own one living in your head.


You can find a complete contradiction of this post here.

Formspring.me Questions & Answers Part 6 NSFW

A roundup of the latest questions that I have been asked through formspring.me.

Still clearing up the backlog, as I mentioned here and here.

What is your most prized possession that you own?
I don’t really have anything that I rate that highly

Who’s the first person you text on most mornings?
There isn’t a regular person. Wld be J if we ddnt live together

Why did you join twitter?
To chat with like minded people 🙂

i have 9 inches see pic and tell me if you think it would hurt fae

You’re invited a large block party in your neighborhood. Do you avoid the party, attend and stand in the corner, attend and mingle casually with people you’ve met before, or attend and aggressively mingle?
Mingle with those I know

Scrunch or fold?
Fold then scrunch

Do you use electric blankets in winter?
Nope, don’t have one. Just add more blankets

How has twitter improved your life?
More connection to the outside world

blogtv or stickam?
I don’t know either of those

Have you ever had sex with more than one person at the same time? If so, how many?

Have you ever been in a relationship where you thought the person was actually trying to hurt you… where you felt as though they actually resented being with you and being in a relationship with you?
no, but I have been in relationships where I’ve been the one who resented it

What are your feelings on religion?
in theory it’s good…. many paths to the top of the same mountain… just don’t force me to follow your path

Do you have unmet needs? If so, how significant is this issue in your life? Will it motivate you to make drastic changes?
i don’t believe so

What would you choose as your last meal?
at the moment that would be greed pizza from Hell Pizza and the blood cherry chocolate moose

What do you seek / value in a partner?
truth, trust and honesty, open communication

are you one of those “dating”/hookup websites? if so which one(s), and how do you like it? has it worked for you, that is to say have you actually met someone from the website(s)
I met my future husband on OkCupid

how do you feel about the current situation in Egypt? should the rest of the world follow their example, where the impoverished majority seize power from the ruling minority?
the impoverished majority still doesn’t have power, now it’s the military

what are some awesome fonts from dafont.com!!????
umm.. pass??

If you could erase a single thing from your memory bank, what would it be?
nothing, everything that has happened to me makes me who i am today

If you knew, without a doubt, that you would be dying in one week – what is the one most important thing that you would want people to know about you?
until i’m placed in that sitution, i really don’t know

Nessa says Moooooo mooooooo mooooooooo mooooooo oink moooooo mooooooo moooooooo mooooo I guess you must be a fat lonely cow too for her to send you that message.
ummm ok? at least i’m not a troll

Describe a time when you felt true fear, the kind that washes through your body in a wave.
during the earthquakes and many aftershocks we have had lately, and i wasn’t/am not in any of the most damaged areas

When’s the last time you laughed so hard, you cried?
i can’t remember the last time, it’s been a while

If you had the opportunity to travel anywhere in the universe, and potentially meet aliens, would you take the trip? What would you look forward to most?
yes, would look forward to the knowledge i would gain, i’m such a knowledge geek

What is a memorable sexual first in your life that you won’t mind sharing?
would have to be the first time i was with J, really changed my life

Ask me absolutely anything!

Formspring.me Questions & Answers Part 2 NSFW

Weekly roundup of questions that I have been asked through formspring.me.  Sorry it’s a bit late this week, have been having issues with formspring.me.

Question: Everything you say is stuck up the way you act is stuck up ive known you for years are no matter what if its not your way then you get shitty about it, if everyone doesn’t agree with your high class important opinion you get shitty.

Answer: you still haven’t given me an actual example… not sure why i keep replying to a troll, but there you go… i’m not one to back down from a debate (that doesn’t mean i get shitty when someone disagrees with me by the way, it’s called having an intelligent conversation)

Question: Hey sweetie, the stupid twunt who is spouting shit, obviously is talking out their arse! How are you gorgeous? x

Answer: aww thank you sweetheart xx i’m doing pretty good 🙂 just looking for a civil union celebrant for our handfasting 🙂

Question: What’s the highest amount you have orgasmed in one session/day?

Answer: about 10 i believe

Question: How many times have you been walked in on during sex/foreplay or oral?

Answer: just twice 🙂 one sex & one oral

Question: Name the 5 things that are within arm’s reach

Answer: Water bottle, lamp, cell phone, butt plug, pencil case

Question: how come your moving?

Answer: to be closer to uni 🙂

Question: What would you do if I turned up at your door, tear-stained make-up, a bag and a small smile?

Answer: would gladly give you a place to stay for a couple of days while you sort things out 🙂

Question: Gag or no gag??

Answer: generally no gag, have’t tried with a gag thgh, something on my to-do list 🙂

Question: Your on a desert island, if you could take just 4 things, what would you take with you?

Answer: that’s a hard one… assuming the four things include people, i would have to take J (would be completely lost without him)…no point in taking anything that requires electricity of course…..a reasonable supply of pens/pencils and a diary to write in….and a pillow :D, can’t sleep without one of those 😛

Question: Where are you moving?

Answer: closer to uni 🙂

Question: When are you moving?

Answer: in a couple of weeks

Question: Do you still have my bra? if so can you post it to me?

Answer: i’ll see what i can do

Ask me absolutely anything, i mean anything 😛